the whole cake

[nowiammyself]

as i get older the signs of aging become more attractive to me, the bags underneath eyes, soft wrinkle lines on the forehead, visible pores, cheeks gone slightly gaunt, features growing more pronounced with the loss of facial fat. tired eyes, a hearty laugh. i start to see it in me, the aging woman emerging. i am not the girl that i was. i am not that pretty girl i never was.

i hope others can look at me and delight in my imperfect skin the way i look at them. i'm getting older and i don't try to hide it. keep the botox away. i will not cling to a fantasy of youth eternal.

grown men who look at young women and girls, at their smooth baby faces, are fucking weak.