not a date
Jan. 19th, 2024 07:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nowiammyselfsleepy saturday night i drag myself out of my cozy bed to go into the chill. i sit there next to the dumpsters it’s cold I have a gross drink a tinto de verano people dump trash into the bin I hear glass clanking together trash hitting trash I can’t hear him I stare at his face and try to find it attractive his profile is all right his nose is long and thin with two small bumps but when he turns his face to look at me head on his face looks a little too bloated but I strain my eyes to try to find it attractive.
Boring conversations, food, destinations. thirty-one, a madrileño accent he says he’s talking slow for me and i think i guess that’s sweet a spanish sweet easy on the sugar hes too tall he towers over me 6’3” I don’t know where to look his coat is too fashionable - you know you live in a place where it never gets cold when everyone’s coats are fashionable muy de moda instead of practical like my ugly unflattering puffy Patagonia coat. Winter true winter cold-in-your-bones winter is the great equalizer - everyone is ugly, bundled up in layers and layers, coats so thick you can’t tell who is skinny and who isn’t, red faces and frizzy wind tangled hair held down by beanie, we are all ugly and unfashionable here. but i’m not in true winter and I’m wearing my ugly unflattering puffy Patagonia and I’m drinking a gross tinto de verano even though it’s fucking invierno and the large cylinder ice cubes in the drink make my hands cold. he doesn’t ask if I want a second drink he doesn’t ask if I’m ready to go he only asks the server for the check and then he pays and that’s that ya está, never speaking again. at least I got a free drink.
Boring conversations, food, destinations. thirty-one, a madrileño accent he says he’s talking slow for me and i think i guess that’s sweet a spanish sweet easy on the sugar hes too tall he towers over me 6’3” I don’t know where to look his coat is too fashionable - you know you live in a place where it never gets cold when everyone’s coats are fashionable muy de moda instead of practical like my ugly unflattering puffy Patagonia coat. Winter true winter cold-in-your-bones winter is the great equalizer - everyone is ugly, bundled up in layers and layers, coats so thick you can’t tell who is skinny and who isn’t, red faces and frizzy wind tangled hair held down by beanie, we are all ugly and unfashionable here. but i’m not in true winter and I’m wearing my ugly unflattering puffy Patagonia and I’m drinking a gross tinto de verano even though it’s fucking invierno and the large cylinder ice cubes in the drink make my hands cold. he doesn’t ask if I want a second drink he doesn’t ask if I’m ready to go he only asks the server for the check and then he pays and that’s that ya está, never speaking again. at least I got a free drink.
